My Christmas Wish............

O.K. I know it's Christmas Eve and here I sit surfing BE! How sad is that!! Actually maybe it's not that bad, facts are I'm stalling! I'm waiting for the kids to head to bed so Santa can make his way to our tree.

Actually for once I think I have it together this year and I think I'm ahead of the game! (ask me again at 1:00am in the morning and my answer may be different!) The toys are built and batteries installed. And tomorrow morning there will not be one damn twisty tie to take off yet another toy! You know those ones they tie onto each package to prevent theft? Thing is, they can't just put one twisty they have to put 20!!!

Today we visited Santa and took pictures, and made cookies for him this afternoon. We later spent a 1/2 an hour on our neighbors roof putting down alfalfa grass for the reindeer. Come morning there will be a couple of goat droppings added and by then we'll totally have our kids screwed up for life!! Ah, the joys of parenthood!

So with that said, I shall make my Christmas Wish for my kids.....

I hope they keep the true spirit/magic of Christmas alive in their minds, hearts and their lives.

I hope their friends, their school, their city, their state, their country do not take that spirit/belief and stomp the crap out of it!

I hope my children will continue to believe in God or something with a higher power; other than those in Washington D.C. or Hollywood! And I hope that whatever that power may be; creates, nourishes and encourages passion for life and embraces differences of all religions and cultures.

I hope they believe that sometimes what is "popular," is not always whats best for ourselves, or the lives of the people around us or far away.

I hope they nuture their individuality and their beliefs with more passion then they do trying to be "Politically Correct".

I hope they believe in the impossible, the unimaginable, the invisible and the unseen.....................

I wish you all a MERRY CHRISTMAS!! May you all believe in the magic and spirit of the season............

Merry Christmas!!! 2004 

This years Christmas card pic!!  

33 Things About Me........

O.k Maybe it should have been titled "100 Things About Me"! But maybe I copped out and quit 1/3 of the way through knowing full well that if I did type the whole thing it would replace at least my 5 last posts!!! O.K. Maybe those posts took a little longer than this post did to compose. Maybe I'm selfish..........

1 My name is Michelle
2 I was born and raised in Reno, Nevada, and I am not ashamed of it
3 My favorite numbers are 7 & 11, not to be confused with 7-11
4 However, I do buy my coffee at 7-11
5 At the moment my favorite is 'Pumkin Spice Latte'
6 Not to be confused with Pumkin Ale which I bought in the spirit of Fall, (uuck!)
7 I love to drink wine and love to go to local wine tasting!
8 I also love to drink beer (but never again Pumpkin Ale!)
9 My favorite book is "the five people you meet in heaven" by Mitch Albom
10 I believe in destiny, soul mates, heaven and God
11 My mom had dementia and the beginning stages of Alzheimers
12 She died in the home I live in
13 I was there, it broke my heart, I still cry
14 When she died she didn't know I was her daughter
15 She thought I was a caregiver
16 She called my children waifs
17 I miss my mom
18 I am 40 years old and both my parents are gone
19 It is indeed a reality check
20 Unless you have experienced it first hand you cannot relate....
21 My husband is 51 years old
22 We have a 4 1/2 year old and a 6 year old
23 He will be approximately 63/64 when they graduate from high school
24 I will be 52, I hope I won't be an "old" mom
25 We will have been married for 10 years in April
26 Life is short, my dreams are big
26 I hope I outlive my dreams
27 I hope I will achieve my dreams
28 I hope the people I love will not forget their dreams
29 I hope my children have dreams far greater than my own
30 I hope when they are 40 they are not still waiting for their dreams to come true
31 I hope my dreams come true before I grow "old"
32 Writing is my passion
33 I need to write more............

Intelligence, Or Lack There Of..............

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

I found this quiz while surfing BE, made for a quick and easy post!

Please, Let the Little Voices In My Head Stop!

My heart was racing; my palms were beginning to sweat. I had a nervous flutter in my stomach. Oh my God, I hope they are o.k. Seconds felt like minutes, minutes felt like hours, ticking away, ever so slowly. Standing outside the door I nervously paced, eventually coming to a standstill just a few feet from the entrance, I waited. The occasional passerby would stare at me, upon entering and exiting. I suppose at some point I should have felt like a perve but my attention was elsewhere.

Alas, another milestone in the life of my boys, albeit just a normal day at the movie theatre; their first trip into the “Men’s Restroom,” unattended. Somehow, between last week and this week they hit a milestone, and I was not a part of their decision making. No amount of convincing could get them to go into the woman’s restroom any longer.

O.K. so I know some of you are rolling your eyes and saying “Oh my God,” not another neurotic mother story! Had it been 20 years ago maybe this would not be such a big thing but in today’s society and all that it holds, letting a small child go into a public men’s restroom is a big deal, no let me rephrase that, it’s a huge deal!! O.K. so maybe this milestone is as big for me as it is for them, but non the less it was major!

O.K, lets forget all about any evil that may lurk there. I, their mother, know how their minds work. I'm always have problems getting them to stop playing in the sink, or with the soap dispenser or stopping them from seeing how much toilet paper they can get off the roll in one huge spin in the woman’s restroom. How in the hell am I going to supervise their inquisitive little minds in the men’s restroom? My youngest son whose almost 5, has delayed speech, how do I get him to understand not to pick up that damn deodorizer that they put in urinals? Can I trust his big brother who’s six to pass on this little bit of information or will it just fall to the wayside as yet another dare? I could go on and on with all the "what if's" and in all honestly I truly am not a neurotic mother. Until today, my mind was on overload.

But finally, the door opened and my youngest son emerged from the men’s restroom. My oldest right behind him yelled, “Mommy, Daniel didn’t wash his hands”, and they both promptly turned around and went back into the dark hole, squealing with excitment.

Please let the little voices in my head stop!! Please………

I couldn't resist snapping a picture of my six year old, Benjamin showing off his missing tooth. Taken 30 seconds after removal! 

Thanksgiving Day Thoughts...........

They say Thanksgiving is a day to give thanks. And yes, it's true, it is the one day everyone acknowledges all the gifts they've been given and what they are grateful for, but for me, it seems so simplistic to even begin to touch on this subject. So to keep from boring all those I do not know and probably never will, I will condense my list of thankyou's to one topic, my children......

For as long as I can remember, (at least back to the age of 6) I have always wanted children. My dreams/hopes were always quite vivid, they may not have always included the man of my dreams or the father of my children but always the children I would one day have, all 6 of them! (O.K. reality eventually set in, the Brady Bunch scenario was not likely to happen!) I went through life waiting for my destiny and my children.

It took many years and many tears until I was given the gift of two incredible little boys, now ages 6 and 4 1/2. I cannot imagine my life without out them. Just as I dreamed of them then, I dream of them now.

So with that said, I will put into words what I thank God for, not just today, but everyday..........

I Am Thankfull For...........

Kisses that are blown in the dark and caught in the light.............

Saying, "I love you round' the world and back again" and hearing, "Oh yeah? Well I love you to the moon and back again" Continuing on and on, until we all run out of places to go and things to think of, but always ending with a kiss....................

When my children say say with enthusiasm, "yummy" and "thank mommy, I love you so much!" after I served Chef Boyardee canned ravioli's or macaroni and cheese!

Seeing my children running and yelling "mommy, mommy" when I pick them up from school each and every day without fail and with the pure joy only a child can express.

Going to bed each night and waking up each morning thinking first and foremost, of the two brightest stars that shine in my life.

O.K. so I could go on and on but I will end here and go and give my children one last goodnight kiss before I fade out. And once again I will will go to bed with a smile on my face and a lightness in my heart that only a child can bring............

Happy Thanksgiving!!

What Planet Are You From?

You Are From the Moon

You can vibe with the steady rhythms of the Moon. You're in touch with your emotions and intuition. You possess a great, unmatched imagination - and an infinite memory. Ultra-sensitive, you feel at home anywhere (or with anyone). A total healer, you light the way in the dark for many.

What Planet Are You From?

They say men are from Mars and women are from Venus, but facts are you could be one click away from being from Uranus! (o.k. sorry about that one!) I found this quiz while browsing through dozens of blogs and it intrigued me, I couldn't resist!

My New Photo Blog.........

I just created a new photo blog in the hopes of inspiring me to capture some unique images not to mention favorite pics of my kids. Please view them at: http://mitzumesphotoblog.blogspot.com

My two monkeys Benjamin and Daniel hamming it up with their two monkeys!! 

And who said the toy was the best part of the meal?? 

Benjamin the perfect McDonald's poster child! 

Practicing to be the next spokesman for Mickey D's! 

Yet another pathetic attempt for the perfect picture! To no avail!! 

I was not very successfull with the Halloween pictures this year. After a few two many pieces of candy Benjamin & Daniel wanted to look everywhere but at me!! 

Reflections On The Past...........

This will be a little blurb where I ramble aimlessly thinking non-stop, trying my best to put my thoughts into words. A reflection on life, such as it is………

Life has an odd way of changing mid-course in your life. At a moments notice you wake up one day and realize you are somewhere you never planned/expected/dreamed you would be. You’ve woken in a place you could never imagine in your best dreams or worst nightmares. You shut your eyes and try to rationalize just what your dreams were, and where they went, versus what your dreams are. Sometimes they can be so very far apart and yet so close, edging on the brink of reality.

I have often wondered what happens in each of our lives that we let go of the dream that was, to reach out to the dream more achievable, but accessible? Still satisfying, but not soul-nourishing. Did we give up? Stop believing in our abilities, our potential? Or did we grow tired of the search, the hunt the challenge and settle for the less stressful, less taxing more simple life? Still full of twists and turns, but always heading in a direction away from the self you thought you were, the self you always believed you could be.

Alas, ramblings on my mind………………..