Me, Defined..................

Not so long ago I was spending some time with an old friend. I'm not too sure how the topic came up but she spoke about her husband. She said, "He's the smartest man I know." My first response was, "Oh my God, how does anyone fill those shoes? But I said nothing I just listened to her words and logged them mentally in the back of my mind.

Days later I recalled the conversation and I wondered, "What am I?" What words would people use to define me? Certainty I am not so naive to imagine myself a being of intellectual superiority. I don't suppose that's ever been an ambition of mine. Intellectual dominance has never ranked high on my priority list. Don't get me wrong, stupid people annoy me. But then again stupid can be defined in a number of ways, perhaps even the smartest people can be stupid. It's all subjective I suppose. I kind of consider myself middle of the road intellectually. I don't sit around the kitchen table with my friends and contemplate the speed the earth rotates on it's axis or ponder quantum physics. The importance of any of this does not weigh heavily at night when I lay my head on my pillow!

So what does define me? In the rolodex of life what category would I be filed under?

I am a mother, a wife, a nurturer. I aspire to accomplish great things but I imagine my greatest aspiration is to raise my two boys to be caring, compassionate, passionate, inquisitive, happy young men.

I'm pathetic at joke telling but I can make a person laugh when they are feeling at their lowest. As a rule I'm fun loving, easy going and I love to be spontaneous. I love to trying new things, go new places and might have just enough stupidity in me to have a 'no-fear' attitude when experiencing new thrills.

I am competitive, determined and when playing games, not a very good loser! I will not quit and am easily annoyed with people who have a habit of not following through with things. Whatever I do, I try to do the best I possibly can. I tend to be a perfectionist with things that fill me with passion and I take pride in my work.

I can nurture your soul and elevate your spirit. I'm a loyal supporter and I have the ability to help people see light at the end of their darkest tunnel. I believe in the impossible and the unseen. I see potential in the smallest things. I prefer not to surround myself with pessimists, naysayers and people who give off negative energy.

I'm a spiritual soul though religion doesn't play a heavy role in this spirituality. I believe in God, Kharma, fate and destiny. The very things 'smart' people love to dissect and attempt to disprove and mock. There are things I know with every ounce of my being that I can't explain, an inner sense if you will. If I betray or fail to act on this sense, I always end up on the wrong side of right.

O.K. with that said, "What category do I fall into in the rolodex of life?"

Life Revisited.........

My "Ah-Ha" Moments...........

Oprah often has a section in her magazine titled my "Ah-Ha" Moments or "What I Know For Sure". While it's taken me quite some time to recognize these moments that define the things that truly matter in my life, I believe I finally have. As I approach my 41'st year (hey, I never said I was a quick learner!) life is becoming a bit clearer. While I'm having one of those enlightened moments of clarity I guess I should recognize a few of those "Ah-Ha Moments" so when life gets a little hazy again I can look back and remember just what they were, in no particular order...........

Life is too short to live for what was, what could have been, what should have been. Life is for living the reality that is. If we don't like our reality then we must change it or learn to accept and thrive within it.

I've truly loved very few people in my life, not all of them loved me to the same degree as I did them. Love isn't about changing people to fit our needs, we can't 'make' people love us or desire us to the same degree we do them. Not everyone we meet in this life has the ability to meet all our needs and maybe just maybe that's enough.

People change for the good and the bad, perhaps that's the circle of life. If we do not change we do not grow. But when we do grow, we don't always grow in the same direction, at the same pace. Without growth we wither and die losing the spirit that makes us thrive.

Happiness and contentment cannot be found in another person, another environment, another circumstance. True happiness can only be found from within. If we are not content in our own being we cannot possibly expect to find it elsewhere.

People who have never had children can never possibly understand the impact they have on your life! (yeah, I know all you mommy blog hater's are rolling your eyes!) For all my life I've wanted children. I've always known they would play an important role in my life. Children are the essence of life. Through the eyes of a child you can imagine anything, believe anything, dream anything and have they have the faith of a 90 year old monk! My children have taught me that despite what goes on in my world, all of it seems miniscule when it comes to their world. At the end of a long exhausting day nothing can pick you up more then a hug from your child or hearing the words "I love you Mommy".

Inner peace keeps you alive. We all make choices daily that we must live with. While we may make the same choices we deal with them differently. We all have a different center of peace. We can all justify our choices on an individual basis and we may quite often disagree. Inner peace isn't up for debate, it isn't a thing that needs to be agreed upon. It's merely something that puts your soul at ease as you lay you head on your pillow each night. As we grow we learn what makes our souls thrive and what harms it. It's up to us as individuals to keep the essence of our being alive.

Life is full of moment's that bring clarity to each of us. We all have our "Ah-Ha" Moments or things we "know" for sure. What are yours?

Haloscan..........

I just added Haloscan to my blog to help with posting comments. While in the future this may be a positive thing it appears I have lost all my previous comments (damn!). Hopefully this will be the only negative of the whole process!