Once Upon A Time a very long time ago, I believed that anything was possible.... I believed in destiny. I also believed in soul mates.... I still do. But over time, I have had to grow up and have been forced to re-examine how I choose to define these terms.....
Life has a way of teaching us lessons about the the people we choose to surround ourselves with and the paths we choose to take. We all think we are unique in our choices, our passions and our circumstances. But maybe, just maybe, we are not as unique as we think. Maybe, we are so very similar in our lives, sometimes we mirror each other in our experiences without ever really knowing it.....
Over time I have had to let go of people in my life that I've believed were my "everything". I've had to re-examine the people who I gave so much power to, but did nothing but scar my soul. Looking back, I now realize that by giving them so much power in my life, I in turn took power away from myself. In a sad pathetic way, I grieve my ignorance. How foolish I have been to believe in others more then myself!
Life is like that sometimes. You sell your soul in the belief of something "special", "more real", "something, better, stronger", some lame sense of "destiny" that you believed in with all your heart, but they didn't. Sometimes, for some people, "Destiny, is nothing more then the here and now." Destiny for some people is more about the immediate satisfaction.
Destiny is a hard thing to sell. And in all reality it should never be sold to anyone. Either you believe in or you don't. If you don't, then it's all about what feels good and floats your boat. The problem with people like that is, sometimes the wind changes, and so does their desire....
Despite the life I have lived and the paths I have chosen, I still believe in destiny. However, after spending a lifetime in believing in fate, destiny and soul mates I have come to the realization that it is not for everyone. Sometimes, the object of your desire, your faith in a heart of a soul that wanders, is for not. Sometimes, it's wasted a a soul that is never meant to find a home that dwells in contentment.
What I have learned over time is my heart does, it seeks compassion, harmony, passion and lust all in one...... For this I live, and for this I will forever search for.....
In my heart of hearts, I know without a doubt what my potential is, where my passion lies, and what drives my soul. I now know what my heart and soul deserves.... I will settle for nothing less...
